welcome 2011

hello

that was the word I always heard in 2010, especially when I went to college

so many 'hellos' and 'goodbyes' I heard last year, so much tears, pressures, struggles that me and my friends had last years, but in the end, we finally had the happiness and joy :)

I threw my so called future university, then I felt like I'm having karma for doing that. I didn't pass four university tests. I felt so low and almost gave up right before SNMPTN because it seemed impossible to pass that prestigious test.

"Tuhan itu baik loh, dia pasti ngasih sesuatu tepat pada waktunya"

somebody kept saying that to me, thanks to you I finally had my confidence in God by keep praying and studying ;)

And I thank to my almighty Jesus Christ for all things He has given to me :')

I passed SNMPTN, succesfully get the second option (yeah I got a bit upset, but still, THANK GOD)

and here I am, the college student of Communication Faculty in Padjadjaran University

nb. sori capek berbahasa bule, campur-campur dikit gapapa ye ;p

di Fikom yang uberkewl ini, gue dapet temen-temen dari berbagai tempat. ada yang dari Jakarta, Bekasi (iya itu masih sekota), Bandung dan sekitarnya, dan dari pulau-pulau di Sumatra dan Jawa. awalnya sih kurang nyaman gara-gara masih culture shock. di kelas isinya anak-anak SNMPTN otomatis dominasinya ya dari daerah. tapi akhirnya... I really really enjoy being one of them =D

so many hellos, so many goodbyes

pas wisuda kemaren, belom terasa sedihnya. tapi begitu misah di universitas masing-masing, terasa banget sedihnya. kangen sama becandaan, berantemnya, kerja samanya anak-anak rc0809, kangen sama kegilaan dan kekompakan anak-anak Mandi Madu, kangen sahabat-sahabat gue yang selalu nyiapin kuping dan waktunya kalo gue butuh curhat, dari yang gak penting sampe yang pake air mata buaya :')

hey girls and boys, I really miss you all

the good point, I'll never see THE boy that make my world upside down in a long time (at least that's what I thought)

gue kira saking lamanya gak bakal ketemu, nantinya pas ketemu lagi I will already move on and we can say hello in a very friendly way.

tapi tapi tapi :(

an unexpected thing happened, we finally meet again with my half-healed wound. I fell for him again, I gave my heart (again) to him, and the consequence, I drowned too deep for the same reason 7 months ago.

I’m a broken-hearted girl in the end of 2010

Sekarang, gue ambil tindakan tegas. Untuk kali ini gue terpaksa gak ketemu sama temen-temen gue buat menghindar dari dia. Gue (dengan agak berat hati) ke acara yang kalau dipikir-pikir, gak sepenting dari ngumpul bareng sahabat-sahabat gue itu. Yeah guys, blame him for making me a coward

Dan 2011, please be nice to me. I’m having UAS this week but here I am, blogging.

Resolusi buat tahun ini gak terlalu muluk-muluk lah kaya taun lalu, soalnya taun lalu itu bukti kalo Tuhan selalu ngasih yang terbaik buat gue di saat yang tepat :)

My ultimate 2011 wish :

Give the best, get the best, and being a better me

So please God and everyone, help me to complete this wishes

-smooches-

G.A.L.A.U

gak tau kenapa kata itu jadi ekspresi gw dan beberapa temen yang lain akhir-akhir ini, padahal kalo hectic weeks biasanya gw malah gak bakal kepikiran yang aneh-aneh sekarang kok berubah ya, hmm..

quick updates, I got sick few weeks ago, so sick I can't even go to college at that day. and lately I have to learn how to be a good friend for my new friends, their standards for "good friend" seemed different to me, but what can I do anyway?
and now, in this effin situation I can't be alone for just a moment because my mind will spin around and I'll be thinking about the past, the GOOD pasts.
I can't tell the details, but just moments ago, I suddenly remembered this thing:
yeah yeah, I know. I supposed to forget my 'used-to-be' college, but I'm just a human being. I regret for my decision, even just a little bit, but still I regret it. I have a dream to become a psychologist since I was only 12 y'o, but now I can't. *sigh*
I can't even continue this post. I'm too sad to tell my galauness right now. I need my real friends, who knows what to do when I'm in this effin situation, besides, I still have to complete my ass-ignment for tomorrow aargh.

goodnight people, goodnight world, goodnight you-in-other-city

-smooches-

update!

udah lama banget gw gak ngepost hehehe, abis gimana yaaa, ternyata gw orangnya makin banyak masalah makin males bahasnya di blog sih.
tapi sekarang gw nulis quick update aja ya, rada males cerita panjang lebar soalnya hehe
1. gw abis dari jogja, anak81 yang lain pada ke bali tapi gw dan 9orang lainnya malah ke jogja. it was fun, i enjoyed it, walaupun gw sempet mabok kereta (males bahasnya -_-) dan sempet ada sleg sana sini, but overall, Jogja'trip was greaat!
2. gw sakit sekarang men, mestinya hari ini gw masuk sekolah soalnya minggu depan udah ub dan gw mesti fokus sekarang, tapi apa daya pilek gw makin parah. kayanya udah gw flu gara-gara virus, terus alergi gw juga kambuh, jadi deh pilek+batuk yang dasyat sekali zz
3. I'm broken hearted now, if you know who the one I liked so bad and you see his facebook, you will know why. tapi sekarang gw sedih banget dah, sedihnya dangdut begini pula, gak ampe nangis sih, amit-amit gw nangis gara-gara cowok (lagi!), tapi tetep aja rada nyesek.
4. gw punya masalah sama fokus gw ke pelajaran. gampang banget teralihkan, contohnya aja tadi pagi. padahal gw lagi nyari tugas biologi anpip tapi ujung-ujungnya malah download ebooknya brisingr aaahhhh kacauuu
gimana ntar gw kelas 3??? ngeriiii
5. gak tau kenapa gw jadi suka sama katy perry, lagu-lagunya menghibur banget deh. tapi sayangnya hape gw lagi error berat, udah music playernya gak bisa dibuka, memory cardnya gak kebaca juga sekarang. jadi deh gw manyun doang kalo lagi bosen, buka facebook udah gak seruuuu. semoga sabtu ini bokap beneran mau nganterin gw servis ni hape sekalian mp4 gw, biar gak mati gaya lagi dah hahaha

aduh, udah ah bahasnya, makin bete gw bacanya zzzzz

That's what friends are for

gw punya 1 lagu favorit saat ini. lagunya tuh baru sekali gw denger, tapi nempel terus di tak gw. jadi tadi gw bela-belain cari lagu ini :

That’s What Friends Are For

And I never tought I’d feel this way

And as far as I’m concerned

I’m glad I got the chance to say

That i do believe, I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well, then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That’s what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I’ll be on your side forever more

That’s what friends are for

Well, you came in loving me

And now there’s so much more I see

And so by the way

I thank you

Oh and then for the times we’re apart

Well, then close your eyes and know

The words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That’s what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I’ll be on your side forever more

That’s what friends are for

I love the 'for good times and bad times, I'll be on your side forever more' part. itu kan artinya sahabat yang baik itu akan selalu di sisi sahabatnya, seneng maupun susah. bisa juga diartiin sahabat yang baik itu adalah sahabat yang gak akan ngomongin sahabatnya sendiri di belakang kan? ada gak ya sahabat macem itu sekarang? kok kayaknya udah jarang yang seperti itu. bukannya gw bilang sahabat-sahabat gw suka ngomongin gw di belakang loh, tapi kalo gw liat di sekitar gw ada aja orang yang ngaku sahabatnya X, tapi santai tanpa rasa bersalah ngomongin sahabatnya itu di depan orang-orang. gak 1-2orang, tapi lumayan lah untuk backstabber jaman sekarang. gw sih cuma berharap, sahabat-sahabat gw gak ada yang kayak gitu, dan gw juga gak tergoda buat ngomongin sahabat gw. soalnya, kalo ada orang yang curhat sama lo, berarti itu jadi rahasia lo berdua aja. waktu gw kecil dulu, orang yang bocorin rahasia temennya pasti dijauhin. tapi sekarang? hmm, people change.

sorry, I can't make this work

I've tried so hard to make things work.

but I've got nothing .

capek gw, jujur aja. kayanya gw udah berusaha sangat keras buat memperbaiki ini semua. tapi mereka berusaha apa coba? ya mungkin dugaan gw dari awal tuh bener ya, usaha yang mereka buat cuma kewajiban doang, you did'nt mean it at all. like I've said before, gw gak perlu denger mereka bilang maaf, toh percuma juga udah lewat semua, gw cuma pengen tau, pengen mereka jujur sebenernya gw dianggep apa sama mereka? cuma pelengkap biar pas 6 orang? nyesek banget ya 2hari ini gw ngeliat mereka gak menepati janji, tapi ya udahlah, mungkin emang mereka beneran gak peduli kan sama gw.

tapi tolong ya TEMAN , jujur aja sama gw kalo emang kalian gak mau libatin gw lagi, gak usah buat gw jadi orang terkucil gitu.

sorry, I can't make this work.