Beautiful Girl :)

gw lagi gloomy emang.

gadapet simak ngejatohin mental gw banget,

gw nangis seharian waktu pengumumannya.

tapi gw sadar,

nangis gak nyelesain masalah.

percuma aja gw nangis meraung-raung ky orang gila, toh gak bakal tiba-tiba gw dapet simaknya kok.

jadi, sekarang gw mau berubah.

gw sadar selama ini gw kurang belajar,

kurang berusaha,

dan yang paling penting, kurang berdoa.

Tuhan udah ngasih teguran yang cukup banget bikin gw sadar.

dan gw mau mulai berubah,

dari sikap, cara gw belajar, cara gw mendekatkan diri sama Tuhan, semuanya.

yaa gw mau ngikutin Astavida (Delapan Jalan Utama) buat ngilangin penderitaan menurut Buddha, yaitu :

• berpikir baik
• berniat baik
• berkata baik
• bertingkah laku baik
• makan minum baik
• berusaha yang baik
• perhatian yang baik
• semedi yang baik (kalo gw mungkin merenung yang bener kali ya)

wish me luck for this good changes people!

baidewei, gw lagi sukaaaa banget sama lagu ini,

check this out :

hope you enjoy it :)

-smooches-

31 INTERESTING FACTS ABOUT GIRLS

Just found this in my friend's Tumblr

1. When a girl says she’s sad, but she isn’t crying, it means she’s crying in her heart.

2. When she ignores you after you’ve done something wrong, it’s best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.

3. A girl can’t find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which
is why it is so hard for her to ‘get over him’ after the relationship’s over.)

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.

5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she
will melt.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually not sure how to react to them.

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?

8. If you don’t like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act look uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.

16. If a girl says she can’t go out with you because she has to study, leave.

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.

18. Don’t try to guess a girl’s feelings. Ask her.

19. Hearing the words “I love you” is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she’ll wonder why she never noticed him before.

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.

23. A girl’s ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.

24. Girls love having fun!

25. A simple ‘Hi’ can brighten a girl’s day.

26. A girl’s best friend usually know best what she is feeling and going through.

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their ‘prettier’ friend.

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

31. Girls always hope that they can always remain as friend with their ex. But never know how

-smooches-

nb. tomorrow's simak result will come.please pray for the best for me, you, and everyone :)

dag dig dug kembang kuncup

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :o

AAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

TAAAAAAAAAAAKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

maaf ya sama ekspresi gw yang gak jelas diatas, itu pelampiasan dari KETAKUTAN gw selama kurang lebih 1 bulan ini

hem, buat yang gak/belom tau, besok itu adalah PENGUMUMAN SIMAK UI 2010. and I really really want to pass the test. gw SANGAT AMAT MAU Psikologi UI dari gw kelas 4 SD. dan menurut gw, ini adalah ujian terberat dalam hidup gw setelah UAN sd,smp,sma, dan ujian hidup lainnya (yang sukses buat nangis tersedu-sedu).

tadinya pengumumannya itu tanggal 15 mei, dan gw udah niat-niatin banget mulai hari ini mau belajar serius buat umb (gak ada yang tau sama hasil simak bukan?). tapi ternyata, pas gw buka twitter, ada anak-anak yang bilang kalo "PENGUMUMAN SIMAK DIMAJUKAN MENJADI 8 MEI 2010, DITAMPILKAN DI KOMPAS". gosh, gw langsung lemes bacanya :(

gw emang maunya simak itu jangan lama-lama ngumuminnya, capek orang nunggunya. tapi dikasih tau dadakan H-1 gini juga lemes banget, berasa gak siap, mau nangis aja bawaannya. apalagi 2 hari yang lalu gw baru dapet penolakan dari Universitas Padjajaran yang di Bandung itu loh. gak, gw gak sedih gak dapet disana, banyak yang lebih butuh unpad daripada gw. tapi yang namanya ditolak pasti kecewa dan sebel dan rada down :'(

doa gw sekarang cuma 1 deh, "Tuhan, tolong kasih EMPEROR yang terbaik. semoga apa yang kami inginkan memang yang terbaik menurutMu"

-smooches-

nb.please pray for EMPEROR tomorrow's simak result :)

When You Say

here's my new favorite YouTube singer : Gabe Bondoc.

lagunya yang ini baguuus banget, bisa diliat liriknya :

WHEN YOU SAY

I remember the first time
it's always playing in my mind
I've never felt like this before
nononono

and every time that you kiss me
feels like I'm having a sweet dream
and i'mma never feel the way i do with anyone else

my pulse is racing
when I see your face and
here is what you're doing to me

when you
when you say
you love
love me
I can feel my heart
beat beat
race behind my chest

every time is the first time
so I pretend it's the last time
that I'mma ever hear you say those words
three little words

I wanna hold you forever
I promise that I ain't never
never ever gonna let you go
I want you to know

my pulse is racing
when I see your face and
here is what you're doing to me

[chrous]

if ever you question my feelings
place your hand on my heart, you'll feel it's beating for you
cuz he knows, he knew before I did
I'm not scared, I'm tired of hiding
I know that it's you because

[chorus]

cakep pula orangnya hihihi

grade 12's pressures

HELLO, I'M BACK!

gak bakal sering-sering kaya dulu sih, tapi yang penting gw udah "bangkit" dari hiatus panjang haha :D

baidewei, gw gak mau ceritain semua kejadian dari mei 2009-januari 2010 ya, sekarang gw cuma mau cerita tentang... hm... kelas 12.

kelas 12 itu : exhausting. tiap hari les, di sekolah pm ini itu, belom lagi kalo ada waktu kosong temen-temen pada ngerjain soal apapun yang bisa ditemuin. males sih gw, tapi kan gondok juga sendirian gak ngerjain soal gitu, jadi yaaa.... ikut deh :p

daaaan gw memutuskan buat milih fakultas Psikologi sama Teknik Industri. yeah, ipc memang. tapi mau diapain lagi? daridulu cita-cita emang Psikologi, jurusan IPA juga mungkin memang yang terbaik buat gw di SMA ini hihihi

apalagi yaaa? OH! fyi, I really not over him 'til now -_______-

Roses are pretty, violets are too.... You used to hurt me, why am I still in love with you?

smooches :)

mengeluh

yea, I'm back again.
tau gw, gw ngejilat ludah gw sendiri (yuck), tadi bilang males ngepost tapi sekarang udah ngepost aja lagi.

tapi, abis gw ngepost tadi, gw blogwalking, blog-blognya anak 81 aja sih, setelah gw liat blog-blognya...
I realised that i missed blogging soo much. gila, udah lama banget gw gak ngepost, ada kali 1 bulan. masa sekalinya gw ngepost isinya gak penting gitu, sok bed sibuk padahal yang ada gw cuma TIDUR di rumah, di sekolah aja cuma main kartu. gak guna banget hidup gw akhir-akhir ini.

ok, enough with the prolog. I want to tell y'all about my 'pathetic life' lately. If you don't want to read it, just close this tab hehehe

gw lagi jadi orang yang menyebalkan, super duper annoying person. semua orang gw buat bete, sesabar, sebaik apapun orang itu. gak tau kenapa ya, gw juga bete sama gw yang sekarang ini, kayanya gak cukup nerima kebaikan orang lain. gw berasa gak puas kalo belom nyakitin orang di deket gw, tapi akhirnya gw juga yang nyesel :'(

gw pengen kaya yang dulu lagi, not too cheerful but always makes people smile. tapi kenapa kayanya susah banget sih buat orang lain seneng? dulu gw paling gak tega ngeliat orang kecewa gara-gara gw, sekarang? I'd do anything to become to happiest person in the world and noone can beat it. rude, huh?

aah, gw gak mau kaya gitu :( udah terlalu banyak hal yang gw buat yang bikin orang-orang kesel sama gw dan yang gak bisa bertahan pun akhirnya ngejauh dari gw.

what should I do now?

update!

udah lama banget gw gak ngepost hehehe, abis gimana yaaa, ternyata gw orangnya makin banyak masalah makin males bahasnya di blog sih.
tapi sekarang gw nulis quick update aja ya, rada males cerita panjang lebar soalnya hehe
1. gw abis dari jogja, anak81 yang lain pada ke bali tapi gw dan 9orang lainnya malah ke jogja. it was fun, i enjoyed it, walaupun gw sempet mabok kereta (males bahasnya -_-) dan sempet ada sleg sana sini, but overall, Jogja'trip was greaat!
2. gw sakit sekarang men, mestinya hari ini gw masuk sekolah soalnya minggu depan udah ub dan gw mesti fokus sekarang, tapi apa daya pilek gw makin parah. kayanya udah gw flu gara-gara virus, terus alergi gw juga kambuh, jadi deh pilek+batuk yang dasyat sekali zz
3. I'm broken hearted now, if you know who the one I liked so bad and you see his facebook, you will know why. tapi sekarang gw sedih banget dah, sedihnya dangdut begini pula, gak ampe nangis sih, amit-amit gw nangis gara-gara cowok (lagi!), tapi tetep aja rada nyesek.
4. gw punya masalah sama fokus gw ke pelajaran. gampang banget teralihkan, contohnya aja tadi pagi. padahal gw lagi nyari tugas biologi anpip tapi ujung-ujungnya malah download ebooknya brisingr aaahhhh kacauuu
gimana ntar gw kelas 3??? ngeriiii
5. gak tau kenapa gw jadi suka sama katy perry, lagu-lagunya menghibur banget deh. tapi sayangnya hape gw lagi error berat, udah music playernya gak bisa dibuka, memory cardnya gak kebaca juga sekarang. jadi deh gw manyun doang kalo lagi bosen, buka facebook udah gak seruuuu. semoga sabtu ini bokap beneran mau nganterin gw servis ni hape sekalian mp4 gw, biar gak mati gaya lagi dah hahaha

aduh, udah ah bahasnya, makin bete gw bacanya zzzzz