daydream

Sky is The Limit

2012-01-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

I know nothing about fashion. All I know is when I get dressed, I have to feel comfortable and pretty. But when I grow up, I learn something. Fashion is part of human life. Fashion is history, in their own way. The more I learn about fashion, the more I'm getting into it. And know, I love fashion, in my own way too. I'm majoring journalism and I'm planning to be fashion journalist when I graduate or when I have the opportunity.

Well, I used to have a passion about music. I still have it now, but not as much as I have for fashion. It would be great to work in music magazine, report about cool concerts all over the world, make review about new bands or new songs, and so on. But I'll be happy to death if I can do that, plus be a fashion journalist too. I know I'm greedy and people who read will say, "keep dreaming, fool." Well that's what I do, keep dreaming cause sky is the limit.

OVER

2012-01-09T07:52:00.002-08:00

I’m aware the path that I’ve chosen is risky and full of consequences, but doesn’t mean I’m okay with that. I hate the tension, hate the pressure. I feel stupid to follow their rule. But hey, this is my consequences for choosing this effin’ major. I won’t call it orientation, but initiation. What kind of orientation that take a very long time like this? Therefore I call it initiation to be their family.

I won’t complaining, not anymore. I’m learning something that college don’t teach. Maybe my writing isn’t good enough to be proud of, but at least I can write essays or stories, indeed. I cried a few times, I got mad uncountable times, and didn’t have holiday! Well, I can’t blame them all, I know my friends (and I) isn’t qualifying to be their ‘family’. We complain a lot but we shut our mouths when they ask anything to us. Some of us even don’t care about this initiation. I don’t, either. But I care of my friends that got the blame from them.

And after this long months, it will finally be over. Won’t end easily, I guess. But the tension and the pressure I felt all this time is nauseating, so whatever they will do at the end, I hope it won’t be anti-climax, because I will laugh till my lungs out when that happen. LOL

I'm not okay

2011-02-15T05:00:00.000-08:00

I'm not okay. At all. I thought I've already over you. I thought I've already given up on you after that (undirect) confession. I keep telling myself I would go for someone else, you didn't deserve me. But truth is, I'm not deserve you. You're too perfect to be mine, I've known for awhile that you just want us to be friends. No more, no less. But the stubborn me keep hanging the hope that we'll be together, even until now. Even when all I can do is just staring your id chat when you're online, or away, or busy. Doesn't have enough guts to say hello. I pretend to be okay, I pretend to not care, but actually that fake attitude isn't me, it's you. I'm not okay, I care too much, I can't move on at all. When I say I want everything to be the way it used to be, I mean it. Please please, when you read this someday, do not push me away. Keep me as your friend, just like the old times. Because without you, I AM NOT OKAY

Final Goodbye

2011-01-17T06:17:00.001-08:00

I reached my limit

Akhirnya gue bilang semuanya ke lo, walaupun gak terang-terangan tapi gue tau lo cukup pinter buat ngerti.

Tadinya gue pikir "what's the worst that can happen?" Toh gue ngerasa nyimpen ini semua udah cukup buat gue capek. Gak taunya respon akhir lo itu buat gue makin bingung,
Gue mesti ngerelain perasaan gue apa pertemanan kita?

Gue sedih banget, gak boong deh. Gue gak tau kapan bakal ketemu lo lagi, walaupun kata orang-orang pasti bakal ketemu/papasan suatu waktu, tetep aja gue ngerasa apa yang gue bilang ke lo bener-bener jadi final goodbye for us. Sakit? Pasti. Tapi gue gak tau kapan bisa move on dari lo kalo gue gak pernah jujur sama lo.

Dan gue cuma berharap, kapan pun kita ketemu lagi, we're gonna be different person with steady lover, jadi gue gak bakal berharap apa-apa dari lo lagi. Makasih ya buat semuanya :')

welcome 2011

2011-01-04T05:09:00.000-08:00

hello

that was the word I always heard in 2010, especially when I went to college

so many 'hellos' and 'goodbyes' I heard last year, so much tears, pressures, struggles that me and my friends had last years, but in the end, we finally had the happiness and joy :)

I threw my so called future university, then I felt like I'm having karma for doing that. I didn't pass four university tests. I felt so low and almost gave up right before SNMPTN because it seemed impossible to pass that prestigious test.

"Tuhan itu baik loh, dia pasti ngasih sesuatu tepat pada waktunya"

somebody kept saying that to me, thanks to you I finally had my confidence in God by keep praying and studying ;)

And I thank to my almighty Jesus Christ for all things He has given to me :')

I passed SNMPTN, succesfully get the second option (yeah I got a bit upset, but still, THANK GOD)

and here I am, the college student of Communication Faculty in Padjadjaran University

nb. sori capek berbahasa bule, campur-campur dikit gapapa ye ;p

di Fikom yang uberkewl ini, gue dapet temen-temen dari berbagai tempat. ada yang dari Jakarta, Bekasi (iya itu masih sekota), Bandung dan sekitarnya, dan dari pulau-pulau di Sumatra dan Jawa. awalnya sih kurang nyaman gara-gara masih culture shock. di kelas isinya anak-anak SNMPTN otomatis dominasinya ya dari daerah. tapi akhirnya... I really really enjoy being one of them =D

so many hellos, so many goodbyes

pas wisuda kemaren, belom terasa sedihnya. tapi begitu misah di universitas masing-masing, terasa banget sedihnya. kangen sama becandaan, berantemnya, kerja samanya anak-anak rc0809, kangen sama kegilaan dan kekompakan anak-anak Mandi Madu, kangen sahabat-sahabat gue yang selalu nyiapin kuping dan waktunya kalo gue butuh curhat, dari yang gak penting sampe yang pake air mata buaya :')

hey girls and boys, I really miss you all

the good point, I'll never see THE boy that make my world upside down in a long time (at least that's what I thought)

gue kira saking lamanya gak bakal ketemu, nantinya pas ketemu lagi I will already move on and we can say hello in a very friendly way.

tapi tapi tapi :(

an unexpected thing happened, we finally meet again with my half-healed wound. I fell for him again, I gave my heart (again) to him, and the consequence, I drowned too deep for the same reason 7 months ago.

I’m a broken-hearted girl in the end of 2010

Sekarang, gue ambil tindakan tegas. Untuk kali ini gue terpaksa gak ketemu sama temen-temen gue buat menghindar dari dia. Gue (dengan agak berat hati) ke acara yang kalau dipikir-pikir, gak sepenting dari ngumpul bareng sahabat-sahabat gue itu. Yeah guys, blame him for making me a coward

Dan 2011, please be nice to me. I’m having UAS this week but here I am, blogging.

Resolusi buat tahun ini gak terlalu muluk-muluk lah kaya taun lalu, soalnya taun lalu itu bukti kalo Tuhan selalu ngasih yang terbaik buat gue di saat yang tepat :)

My ultimate 2011 wish :

Give the best, get the best, and being a better me

So please God and everyone, help me to complete this wishes

-smooches-

150410

2010-11-10T10:17:00.000-08:00

that was the saddest moment in my teenage life

I (finally) cried over a boy

It's sad, not because the broken heart I felt, but because I did the taboo thing I wish I'd never did,

cried - over - a - boy

It has been almost seven months after that moment,

he never know what he's done to me until now, yeah maybe he knew a bit, but he surely didn't know the details.

we're friends now, a good one. better than before and I have no pressure anymore to behave or do good stuff in front of him. I thank God for that.

and know, after a little talk with my bestfriend, suddenly I remembered that moment again. I already forgave him, surely, whether he knew or not. but the memory just came back last night and I can't help but feel sad until now.

we move on, I know, and I do it too, but I miss the feelings, when I got texts from him, chatted with him, even when I got phonecalls from him. only the feeling, not the person (thank God)

I don't miss you

I miss me when I'm with you

You Don't Know Me

2010-11-09T09:48:00.000-08:00

You give your hand to me
And then you say, "Hello."
And I can hardly speak,
My heart is beating so.

And anyone can tell
You think you know me well.
Well, you don't know me.

No you don't know the one
Who dreams of you at night;
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight

Oh I'm just a friend.
That's all I've ever been.
Cause you don't know me.

For I never knew the art of making love,
Though my heart aches with love for you.

Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.
A chance that you might love me too.

You give your hand to me,
And then you say, "Goodbye."
I watched you walk away,
Beside the lucky girl

Oh, you'll never ever know
The one who loved you so.
Well, you don't know me

Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.
A chance that you might love me too.

Oh, you give your hand to me,
And then you say, "Goodbye."
I watched you walk away,
Beside the lucky girl

Oh, you'll never ever know
The one who loved you so.
Well, you don't know me

The True Purpose of Industry

2010-11-08T02:44:00.000-08:00

And I've tried to find happiness in a bigger TV, a car and a watch. I've tried to find happiness in power over others and the respect of the people around me. And I appreciate your patience, while you stand here, right in front of me.

Waiting for me to come to my senses.

postingan di kala bosen

2010-10-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

got nothing to do here, so I decided to post some stuffs to my blog *boong banget padahal masih ada tugas statos sama persiapan role play besok* :p

anyway, I've been settling down in Jatinangor dan sedikit-sedikit gw lumayan bisa lah nyaman sama suasana sini. walaupun awalnya gw kurang betah, tapi karena ada bocah-bocah ini :

gw jadi mulai nyaman soalnya sebagian besar juga dari jakarta, bahkan ada yang dari 61, tetangganya sekolah gw, how small world it is ck

but in the other side, I felt a lil' bit uncomfy with my whole new classmates. dunno why, but maybe one of the reasons is my class consists of snmptn's grads. as you know then, most of my classmates are... yeah, non-jakarta people.

sorry sorry, I'm not being rude. I just wanna explain why in the beginning I didn't feel comfortable around them. kaya kata dosen gw nih, kalo komunikasi yang efektif itu terjadi karna adanya commoness, yaitu kesamaan. mungkin karna itu kali ya gw gak nyaman.

but but but, after a month or so, my faculty were having dies natalis or 50th birthday ceremony and we, the new collegers, had to attend the ceremony in Unpad DU, Bandung. ( I still don't know why we're having ceremony in bandung yet our faculty is in nangor, but why bother? ;p )

after that long and not-so-boring ceremony, me and some of my classmates had some 'photoshoots' then we headed to ciwalk to do karaoke-ing.

and oh gawd, they're so crazyyyy. they chose really random songs, as long as the song could make us screamed and danced.

oh here they are :

judge freely please, but one thing I've learned that don't ever judge people by their cover. and time by time, I'm almost comfortable around them. why just almost? because still, some of them are annoying and can't behave normally.

ah, I still miss my high school friends of course, but even the Bible says don't look back. I don't mean to forget them, I just thought that we can see our future if we don't keep remember the past all the time, right?

shoot, I have to sleep now, I have a roleplay contest presenting my class. tau kok gw, si gagu nina gaya bener ikutan lomba begituan sekarang? LOL. I have no idea either, maybe this is my lesson to be a better person? ;)

goodnight world, goodnight noises everywhere, goodnight you my other half :)

-smooches-

G.A.L.A.U

2010-10-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

gak tau kenapa kata itu jadi ekspresi gw dan beberapa temen yang lain akhir-akhir ini, padahal kalo hectic weeks biasanya gw malah gak bakal kepikiran yang aneh-aneh sekarang kok berubah ya, hmm..

quick updates, I got sick few weeks ago, so sick I can't even go to college at that day. and lately I have to learn how to be a good friend for my new friends, their standards for "good friend" seemed different to me, but what can I do anyway?
and now, in this effin situation I can't be alone for just a moment because my mind will spin around and I'll be thinking about the past, the GOOD pasts.
I can't tell the details, but just moments ago, I suddenly remembered this thing:
yeah yeah, I know. I supposed to forget my 'used-to-be' college, but I'm just a human being. I regret for my decision, even just a little bit, but still I regret it. I have a dream to become a psychologist since I was only 12 y'o, but now I can't. *sigh*
I can't even continue this post. I'm too sad to tell my galauness right now. I need my real friends, who knows what to do when I'm in this effin situation, besides, I still have to complete my ass-ignment for tomorrow aargh.

goodnight people, goodnight world, goodnight you-in-other-city

-smooches-

brand new friendship

2010-09-14T06:59:00.000-07:00

truthfully, I really don't know what I feel right now. do I still in love with you? or do I love you like I love the rest of the boys in our community?

please, please, treat me like you treat your other girlfriends. no more, no less. and don't use me as your excuse to your parents when the truth is you're with someone else, it's rude. it makes me numb.

now we start it all over again, as good friends. I really hope this can work out, though it feels weird being friends with the boy who used to made me cry almost every night, who made me fall head over heels, and pulled me in and out over and over again.

hello boy, let's make this brand new friendship out of drama and all shitties :)

ps. pardon my grammar :p

-smooches-

ospek osfak mabim

2010-08-23T05:19:00.000-07:00

rasanya lama deh gak ngepost, sibuk ospek dkk sih :)

untungnya sekarang gw udah gak sesibuk dan serepot kemarin-kemarin, jadi bisa kembali aktif di blog hehe :p

heeem, sebenernya sekarang mau cur soal kegiatannya, but for some reasons, I have to speak wisely and pay attention with the content and the language. jadiiiiiiiiiiii yaa curnya sama orang-orang terdekat aja deh hihihi :D

intinya, ospek, osfak, mabim itu capeeeek, mental sama fisik lumayan diuji, mental lebih parah dari TO tapi fisik masih lebih parah TO sih, soalnya TO kan pake acara seri, lumpuran, lari kalo denger peluit (duh jadi kangeeen hiks :'( ) tapi MUNGKIN nanti ada outbond kali yaa, soalnya kalo ospek gitu kalo gapake outbond kurang gimaaans gitu, nyokap juga bilang gitu sih hehe

anyway I have to go now, some project need to be done today (sok bet nginggris)

-smooches-

o***k

2010-08-20T06:12:00.000-07:00

I'm exhausted, angry, sad, lonely
I feel wasted and have no power anymore
I know this is college life, I've expected it
but why it feels so miserable?
why I have to be scared, but have no respect to you all?

insomnia

2010-08-13T10:46:00.000-07:00

can't sleep, I miss my home. I miss the sound of the fan in my room, I miss the warmth of my room, and I miss my mom's goodnight hug :(

David Archuleta "YOU CAN".

2010-08-12T00:42:00.000-07:00

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait

-smooches-

I received everything I needed

2010-08-11T23:38:00.000-07:00

move on

2010-08-11T06:04:00.000-07:00

this is the third post I made in a day, seems I have time to waste :)

I was just looking old photos of mine when I realized one thing, "what if I'm not ready to move on?"

when I was in high school, I was surrounded by people I love (and secretly hate, just some people ;p) and I was in my "comfort" zone.

they were my back-ups, my trashbins (when I was in jumpy mood), my mood-boosters, my reason to come to school, and also my frienemies

and now I have to say goodbye to all of them. yes, we go to different universities, mostly to UI, my used-to-be future university :(

am I ready for this? leave my "comfort" zone and go to extremely new situation?

huh, ready or not, this is life.I don't have any choices, right?

ugh, have to now, time to watch Princess Hours LOL

p.s pardon my language :)

-smooches-

phase of life

2010-08-11T04:40:00.001-07:00

The most difficult phase of life isn't when no one understands you, it's when you don't understand yourself
- Jeff Brown

grrraw

2010-08-11T03:53:00.000-07:00

saking gak ada kerjaannya gw sampe ngepost lagi hari ini *tapi boong LOL :p

tadi ya gw baru liat tata tertib ospek fikom di facebook dan omaigot banyak banget yang mesti disiapin dadakan, sekarang kan udah rabu, sedangkan peralatannya mesti udah jadi paling gak sabtu malem -____-'

aduh semoga deh anak-anak fikom yang gw kenal mau berbaik hati buat tugas bareng, bayangin aja baru tadi dikasih tau kalo harus buat tas serut O.o

yaudah deh ya mau diapain lagi, katanya juga kalo ospek gak ribet ya bukan ospek namanya hahaha :D

baidewei tadi ada kumpul mkk fikom gitu terus ada senior pas sma, karna dia gak ngenalin gw yaudah gw juga pura-pura gak pernah liat hahaha, padahal gak mungkin banget gitu kan pas kelas X gw rajin ikut kegiatan rohkris (maaf banget ya ka, abis gengsi :p)

udah ah segini dulu, mau beli makan malem soalnya, maklum anak kos :)

-smooches-

F A T E

2010-08-10T04:47:00.000-07:00

THANK GOD!

setelah bergalau ria selama 3 bulan dan gak ngepost apa-apa, akhirnya sekarang gw ngepost berita bahagia aka good news.

tanggal 16 Juli 2010 kemarin, gw dapet pengumuman yang gw gak sangka sama sekali, saya resmi diterima di Fakultas Ilmu Komunikasi Universitas Padjadjaran lewat SNMPTN pula :p

Puji Tuhan bangeeeet, gak nyangka sama sekali gw diterima disana, udah legowo sama untarnya aja gataunya dapet fikom unpad yang katanya bagus banget itu LOL :D

dan sekarang gw udah di jatinangor buat ngekos, padahal mulai ospek dan tetek bengeknya aja masih minggu depan.

homesick sih, tapi it's way better than not having any universities :)

udah ah, mau mandi dulu, terus tidur cepet, besok mau wawancara maba fikom soalnya hihihi :p

oiya, mau ngucapin HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST NERISSA ARVIANA :D have a blast one ya darl :*

dan besok puasa kan ya, jadi SELAMAT MENUNAIKAN IBADAH PUASA buat umat muslim ya

ciao peeps

~smooches

Beautiful Girl :)

2010-05-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

gw lagi gloomy emang.

gadapet simak ngejatohin mental gw banget,

gw nangis seharian waktu pengumumannya.

tapi gw sadar,

nangis gak nyelesain masalah.

percuma aja gw nangis meraung-raung ky orang gila, toh gak bakal tiba-tiba gw dapet simaknya kok.

jadi, sekarang gw mau berubah.

gw sadar selama ini gw kurang belajar,

kurang berusaha,

dan yang paling penting, kurang berdoa.

Tuhan udah ngasih teguran yang cukup banget bikin gw sadar.

dan gw mau mulai berubah,

dari sikap, cara gw belajar, cara gw mendekatkan diri sama Tuhan, semuanya.

yaa gw mau ngikutin Astavida (Delapan Jalan Utama) buat ngilangin penderitaan menurut Buddha, yaitu :

berpikir baik
berniat baik
berkata baik
bertingkah laku baik
makan minum baik
berusaha yang baik
perhatian yang baik
semedi yang baik (kalo gw mungkin merenung yang bener kali ya)

wish me luck for this good changes people!

baidewei, gw lagi sukaaaa banget sama lagu ini,

check this out :

hope you enjoy it :)

-smooches-

31 INTERESTING FACTS ABOUT GIRLS

2010-05-07T09:21:00.000-07:00

Just found this in my friend's Tumblr

1. When a girl says she’s sad, but she isn’t crying, it means she’s crying in her heart.

2. When she ignores you after you’ve done something wrong, it’s best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.

3. A girl can’t find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which
is why it is so hard for her to ‘get over him’ after the relationship’s over.)

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.

5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she
will melt.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually not sure how to react to them.

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?

8. If you don’t like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act look uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.

16. If a girl says she can’t go out with you because she has to study, leave.

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.

18. Don’t try to guess a girl’s feelings. Ask her.

19. Hearing the words “I love you” is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she’ll wonder why she never noticed him before.

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.

23. A girl’s ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.

24. Girls love having fun!

25. A simple ‘Hi’ can brighten a girl’s day.

26. A girl’s best friend usually know best what she is feeling and going through.

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their ‘prettier’ friend.

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

31. Girls always hope that they can always remain as friend with their ex. But never know how

-smooches-

nb. tomorrow's simak result will come.please pray for the best for me, you, and everyone :)

dag dig dug kembang kuncup

2010-05-07T03:46:00.000-07:00

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :o

AAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

TAAAAAAAAAAAKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

maaf ya sama ekspresi gw yang gak jelas diatas, itu pelampiasan dari KETAKUTAN gw selama kurang lebih 1 bulan ini

hem, buat yang gak/belom tau, besok itu adalah PENGUMUMAN SIMAK UI 2010. and I really really want to pass the test. gw SANGAT AMAT MAU Psikologi UI dari gw kelas 4 SD. dan menurut gw, ini adalah ujian terberat dalam hidup gw setelah UAN sd,smp,sma, dan ujian hidup lainnya (yang sukses buat nangis tersedu-sedu).

tadinya pengumumannya itu tanggal 15 mei, dan gw udah niat-niatin banget mulai hari ini mau belajar serius buat umb (gak ada yang tau sama hasil simak bukan?). tapi ternyata, pas gw buka twitter, ada anak-anak yang bilang kalo "PENGUMUMAN SIMAK DIMAJUKAN MENJADI 8 MEI 2010, DITAMPILKAN DI KOMPAS". gosh, gw langsung lemes bacanya :(

gw emang maunya simak itu jangan lama-lama ngumuminnya, capek orang nunggunya. tapi dikasih tau dadakan H-1 gini juga lemes banget, berasa gak siap, mau nangis aja bawaannya. apalagi 2 hari yang lalu gw baru dapet penolakan dari Universitas Padjajaran yang di Bandung itu loh. gak, gw gak sedih gak dapet disana, banyak yang lebih butuh unpad daripada gw. tapi yang namanya ditolak pasti kecewa dan sebel dan rada down :'(

doa gw sekarang cuma 1 deh, "Tuhan, tolong kasih EMPEROR yang terbaik. semoga apa yang kami inginkan memang yang terbaik menurutMu"

-smooches-

nb.please pray for EMPEROR tomorrow's simak result :)

When You Say

2010-01-22T05:09:00.000-08:00

here's my new favorite YouTube singer : Gabe Bondoc.

lagunya yang ini baguuus banget, bisa diliat liriknya :

WHEN YOU SAY

I remember the first time
it's always playing in my mind
I've never felt like this before
nononono

and every time that you kiss me
feels like I'm having a sweet dream
and i'mma never feel the way i do with anyone else

my pulse is racing
when I see your face and
here is what you're doing to me

when you
when you say
you love
love me
I can feel my heart
beat beat
race behind my chest

every time is the first time
so I pretend it's the last time
that I'mma ever hear you say those words
three little words

I wanna hold you forever
I promise that I ain't never
never ever gonna let you go
I want you to know

my pulse is racing
when I see your face and
here is what you're doing to me

[chrous]

if ever you question my feelings
place your hand on my heart, you'll feel it's beating for you
cuz he knows, he knew before I did
I'm not scared, I'm tired of hiding
I know that it's you because

[chorus]

cakep pula orangnya hihihi

grade 12's pressures

2010-01-22T04:40:00.000-08:00

HELLO, I'M BACK!

gak bakal sering-sering kaya dulu sih, tapi yang penting gw udah "bangkit" dari hiatus panjang haha :D

baidewei, gw gak mau ceritain semua kejadian dari mei 2009-januari 2010 ya, sekarang gw cuma mau cerita tentang... hm... kelas 12.

kelas 12 itu : exhausting. tiap hari les, di sekolah pm ini itu, belom lagi kalo ada waktu kosong temen-temen pada ngerjain soal apapun yang bisa ditemuin. males sih gw, tapi kan gondok juga sendirian gak ngerjain soal gitu, jadi yaaa.... ikut deh :p

daaaan gw memutuskan buat milih fakultas Psikologi sama Teknik Industri. yeah, ipc memang. tapi mau diapain lagi? daridulu cita-cita emang Psikologi, jurusan IPA juga mungkin memang yang terbaik buat gw di SMA ini hihihi

apalagi yaaa? OH! fyi, I really not over him 'til now -_______-

Roses are pretty, violets are too.... You used to hurt me, why am I still in love with you?

smooches :)

mengeluh

2009-05-25T02:38:00.003-07:00

yea, I'm back again.
tau gw, gw ngejilat ludah gw sendiri (yuck), tadi bilang males ngepost tapi sekarang udah ngepost aja lagi.

tapi, abis gw ngepost tadi, gw blogwalking, blog-blognya anak 81 aja sih, setelah gw liat blog-blognya...
I realised that i missed blogging soo much. gila, udah lama banget gw gak ngepost, ada kali 1 bulan. masa sekalinya gw ngepost isinya gak penting gitu, sok bed sibuk padahal yang ada gw cuma TIDUR di rumah, di sekolah aja cuma main kartu. gak guna banget hidup gw akhir-akhir ini.

ok, enough with the prolog. I want to tell y'all about my 'pathetic life' lately. If you don't want to read it, just close this tab hehehe

gw lagi jadi orang yang menyebalkan, super duper annoying person. semua orang gw buat bete, sesabar, sebaik apapun orang itu. gak tau kenapa ya, gw juga bete sama gw yang sekarang ini, kayanya gak cukup nerima kebaikan orang lain. gw berasa gak puas kalo belom nyakitin orang di deket gw, tapi akhirnya gw juga yang nyesel :'(

gw pengen kaya yang dulu lagi, not too cheerful but always makes people smile. tapi kenapa kayanya susah banget sih buat orang lain seneng? dulu gw paling gak tega ngeliat orang kecewa gara-gara gw, sekarang? I'd do anything to become to happiest person in the world and noone can beat it. rude, huh?

aah, gw gak mau kaya gitu :( udah terlalu banyak hal yang gw buat yang bikin orang-orang kesel sama gw dan yang gak bisa bertahan pun akhirnya ngejauh dari gw.

what should I do now?

update!

2009-05-25T00:13:00.001-07:00

udah lama banget gw gak ngepost hehehe, abis gimana yaaa, ternyata gw orangnya makin banyak masalah makin males bahasnya di blog sih.
tapi sekarang gw nulis quick update aja ya, rada males cerita panjang lebar soalnya hehe
1. gw abis dari jogja, anak81 yang lain pada ke bali tapi gw dan 9orang lainnya malah ke jogja. it was fun, i enjoyed it, walaupun gw sempet mabok kereta (males bahasnya -_-) dan sempet ada sleg sana sini, but overall, Jogja'trip was greaat!
2. gw sakit sekarang men, mestinya hari ini gw masuk sekolah soalnya minggu depan udah ub dan gw mesti fokus sekarang, tapi apa daya pilek gw makin parah. kayanya udah gw flu gara-gara virus, terus alergi gw juga kambuh, jadi deh pilek+batuk yang dasyat sekali zz
3. I'm broken hearted now, if you know who the one I liked so bad and you see his facebook, you will know why. tapi sekarang gw sedih banget dah, sedihnya dangdut begini pula, gak ampe nangis sih, amit-amit gw nangis gara-gara cowok (lagi!), tapi tetep aja rada nyesek.
4. gw punya masalah sama fokus gw ke pelajaran. gampang banget teralihkan, contohnya aja tadi pagi. padahal gw lagi nyari tugas biologi anpip tapi ujung-ujungnya malah download ebooknya brisingr aaahhhh kacauuu
gimana ntar gw kelas 3??? ngeriiii
5. gak tau kenapa gw jadi suka sama katy perry, lagu-lagunya menghibur banget deh. tapi sayangnya hape gw lagi error berat, udah music playernya gak bisa dibuka, memory cardnya gak kebaca juga sekarang. jadi deh gw manyun doang kalo lagi bosen, buka facebook udah gak seruuuu. semoga sabtu ini bokap beneran mau nganterin gw servis ni hape sekalian mp4 gw, biar gak mati gaya lagi dah hahaha

aduh, udah ah bahasnya, makin bete gw bacanya zzzzz

randomize

2009-04-20T18:11:00.001-07:00

pernah gak sih lo harus milih antara 2 pilihan, dan pilihan apapun yang lo pilih punya konsekuensi yang sama-sama gak enak? gw pernah loh, malah baru ngalamin kemaren.

kemaren tuh gw ada latian saman di rumah Dinda jam 9, udah gitu gw pake nyasar-nyasar kesananya, padahal gw udah nanya bolak balik sama dinda. hehehe
sampe rumahnya kan udah jam 10 gitu, gw kira udah telat. gak taunya yang ada baru pramud -_-
yaudah kita nunggu yang lain, gak taunya kelas XI tuh cuma 6 orang (+ vasty) yang dateng. latian deh tuh ganti-gantian sama kelas Xnya.
nah pas udah mau jam 12 gitu gw mulai bingung nih. jam 12 gw ada reunian SD (haha, ternyata dikit juga yang dateng), jam 1 gw rapat paskah. tadinya gw udah mantepin hati milih reuni aja, abis udah 5 tahun gak ketemu, kalo rapat juga gw kan danus, bukan koor juga. tapi pas gw mau ijin,, koor gw a.k.a togi nyap-nyap aja gitu. jadi gak enak kan gw. tapi yaa, gw ngikutin yang nyokap gw pernah bilang, 'percuma ikut ini itu tapi kamunya gak enjoy'
jadi gw ikut reuni aja, tapi konsekuensinya,, sampe sekarang anak rohkris gak ada yang ngabarin apa-apa ke gw, guru gw pasti ngomel juga deh. tapi mau gimana lagi, gw ikut rapat juga gak guna, bukannya apa-apa, gw gak bisa bantu apa-apa sih.

tapi, ada bagusnya sih gw ikut reuni. gw udah mulai jenuh (lagi!) sama lingkungan 81, jadi gak ada salahnya gw jalan-jalan sama temen-temen gw yang udah lama gak ketemu.

baidewei, gw stres sama paskah nih. udah anak-anak acaranya main tunjuk gw jadi mc (gak tau apa gw gak demen?? huh
hahahaha, kidding.) , sampe sekarang gw sama Aryo belom latian sama sekali loh, gw kan grogi ntar. ya dan hal lainnya yang gak mungkin gw beberin di sini.
sori ya teman-teman panitia paskahku, gw gak bisa bantu banyak, jualan aja bisanya. maklum anak danus, hiks :'(

oiya, gw seneng loh sama reuni kemaren :)
yang dateng cuma dikit sih, tapi gw seneng tuh keliling SD sambil ketemu guru-gurunya, hihihi. udah gitu masih diinget pula, senangnyaa :)
abis itu malah jalan ke pim sampe jam 8an, sebenernya pas jam 8 tuh gw udah dagdigdug, takut kena omel bokap nyokap pulang malem, mana macet pula. gak taunya,, sampe rumah jam 10 gak kena omel sama sekali! asik dah, gw udah dilonggarin jam malemnya. kapan-kapan coba lebih malem lagi ah, hehehe....

udah ah, mau siap-siap ke pim (lagi!) sama temen-temen smp gw
*smooches

That's what friends are for

2009-04-18T09:11:00.000-07:00

gw punya 1 lagu favorit saat ini. lagunya tuh baru sekali gw denger, tapi nempel terus di tak gw. jadi tadi gw bela-belain cari lagu ini :

That’s What Friends Are For

And I never tought I’d feel this way

And as far as I’m concerned

I’m glad I got the chance to say

That i do believe, I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well, then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That’s what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I’ll be on your side forever more

That’s what friends are for

Well, you came in loving me

And now there’s so much more I see

And so by the way

I thank you

Oh and then for the times we’re apart

Well, then close your eyes and know

The words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That’s what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I’ll be on your side forever more

That’s what friends are for

I love the 'for good times and bad times, I'll be on your side forever more' part. itu kan artinya sahabat yang baik itu akan selalu di sisi sahabatnya, seneng maupun susah. bisa juga diartiin sahabat yang baik itu adalah sahabat yang gak akan ngomongin sahabatnya sendiri di belakang kan? ada gak ya sahabat macem itu sekarang? kok kayaknya udah jarang yang seperti itu. bukannya gw bilang sahabat-sahabat gw suka ngomongin gw di belakang loh, tapi kalo gw liat di sekitar gw ada aja orang yang ngaku sahabatnya X, tapi santai tanpa rasa bersalah ngomongin sahabatnya itu di depan orang-orang. gak 1-2orang, tapi lumayan lah untuk backstabber jaman sekarang. gw sih cuma berharap, sahabat-sahabat gw gak ada yang kayak gitu, dan gw juga gak tergoda buat ngomongin sahabat gw. soalnya, kalo ada orang yang curhat sama lo, berarti itu jadi rahasia lo berdua aja. waktu gw kecil dulu, orang yang bocorin rahasia temennya pasti dijauhin. tapi sekarang? hmm, people change.

SD Putra 1 kelas A rocks!

2009-04-11T18:35:00.002-07:00

HAPPY EASTER bagi yang merayakaan :)

baidewei, gw gak mau ngebahas paskah sekarang, soalnya gw belom ke Gereja nih, hihihi..
gw mau cerita soal reuni kecil-kecilan gw sama beberapa temen SD gw.

jadi, tanggal 10 April kemarin, gw janjian sama Ditta temen SD gw buat ngomongin reunian SD. kata Ditta sih yang lain juga mau dateng, tapi gw gak tau siapa aja. nah, pas gw nyampe di tempat janjiannya, udah ada Ditta sama Yunita, yaa kita kangen-kangenan dulu lah bentar abis itu cerita-cerita soal apa yang terjadi di 5tahun terakhir ini (apa sih gw)

janjiannya sih jam 5, gw ngaret 10menit sih, tapi tau sendiri anak jaman sekarang, ngaretnya pada 1-2jam, ckck
gw, ditta, yunita, ravi (dia dateng 10menit setelah gw dateng) ngobrol-ngobrol yang gak jelas sambil nunggu yamg lain dateng. pas akhirnya rina dateng, kita pindah ke dalam ruangan tuh, biar lebih adem (padahal gak taunya ACnya unfunction gitu, ck).
Rina tuh masih sama, cerewet banget anaknya, hihihi. udah gitu dia yang paling tau update anak-anak putra yang kelas A, jadi begitu dia dateng kita langsung bener-bener mengenang masa-masa SD dulu, ngobrolin soal kabar anak-anaknya sekarang, ya tentang itu lah semuanya.

finally, yang ngumpul itu ada (sesuai urutan dateng ya) Yunita, Ditta, gw, Ravi, Rina, Gary Luthfi, Angga, Ikhwan, Gery Airlangga (tapi dia cuma bentar, abis itu langsung cabut).the creepy one was, kita semua yang dateng itu pake kaos item, padahal gak ada yang janjian mau pake baju apa. rada ngeri sih gw kalo inget, tapi ya anggep aja kita semua masih kompak kaya dulu. hehehe

jujur ya, tadinya gw rada males diajak ketemuan gitu. gw mikirnya, ntar aja gw ikutan pas reuni benerannya. gak terlalu excited aja gw. tapi pas gw nanya sama nyokap dan nyokap bilang ikut aja (tadinya gw khawatir gak boleh, kan lagi good friday) , yaudah gw pikir gak ada salahnya juga ikut, untuk mencairkan suasana gitu, kan udah lama banget gak ketemu, kira-kira 5tahun gitu.
setelah reunian itu, gw baru nyadar ya, GW KANGEN BANGET SAMA MEREKA.
yah, walaupun rata-rata udah berubah, kayak cowo-cowo pada ngerokok kecuali Ravi sm Gary(in recovery katanya), terus duo Gery Gary yang lebih kalem sekarang, gak hebring kaya waktu SD dulu, atau Ikhwan yang udah gak jail lagi tapi udah jadi vokalis band metal, hihihi. tapi gw kangen loh sama mereka, Angga yang masih aja rame, Rina yang bawel, Yunita yang cool (apa sih), ya pokoknya mereka semua deh. gw pengen 'REUNIAN SD PUTRA 1 angktn 2007 kelas A' tgl 20 besokpada dateng semua. kita ngenang masa-masa dulu, maafin salah-salah kita dulu, ahh pokoknya semuanya...

after all, I realized that no matter how hurt they made to me long time ago, I miss them, all of them. yang udah pindah sebelum lulus lah, yang masuknya pas kelas 3,4,5,6 lah, semuanya gw kangen, emang sih ada beberapa yang gw lupa tampangnya, tapi siapa tau pas reunian nanti gw jadi inget dan kita bisa kangen-kangenan lagi. :)

*smooches to my 'SD Putra 1 kls A' friends.

oret-oret

2009-04-09T08:26:00.001-07:00

lazy on the go .........

I feel so lazy just to stay away from the laptop. kayanya ada lem gitu di kursinya yang buat gw gak mau bergerak sedikit pun dari depan laptop. aduh malesnya hari ini -_-

Quick update aja ya :

hari ini internetnya lagi parah. tadinya gw kira cuma gw doang yang ngerasa gitu, tapi pas lagi ngeplurk si ayas jugaa. omaigod padahal gw sedang tergila-gila ngeplurk tapi karena internetnya bapuk amat sangat jadi tersendat deh
kalo mau jadi master bigos tuh mesti rajin-rajin buka fesbuk yee, abis kayanya tiap gw buka fesbuk banyak banget update orang-orang yang bikin gw melotot, wew!
oya, bagi temen-temen gw yang nasibnya sama kaya gw (belom maju presentasi kartul), kita saling mendoakan yaa, terus mudah-mudahan gak bakal ada anak yang nanya-nanya gitu, males deh

ya cukup segitu aja, hehe

*hari ini gw lagi gak jelas, jadi wajar aja yaaa :)

81 banjirr!!

2009-04-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

okee, gw tau ini rada gak up to date, tapi daripada gw gak ngepost sama sekali kan sayang juga. hihi :P

jadi, 81 banjir. iyaa, banjir yang terjadi 1tahun sekali tapi selalu dasyat sepertinya, hoho.
jujur, gw males banget dateng ke sekolah hari senin itu (dan hari-hari selanjutnya juga), tapi mau gak mau gw masuk dah. nah, pas jam terakhir itu kan fisika, tiba-tiba ujan gedeee banget, sampe atap kelas gw tuh bocor, gak semua sih, tapi cukup buat panik anak-anak yang kena genangan air ujan itu. tiba-tiba gak tau siapa ada yang teriak '81 banjir wooi!' langsung deh anak-anak ipa1 (kelas gw) keluar kelas semua meninggalkan Pak Anton yang kayanya pasrah aja gitu dikacangin anak-anak (maaf ya Pak :))

ternyata 81 banjir saudara-saudara, dan banjirnya itu lebih hebat daripada banjir taun lalu. buseet, tau banjir bukannya pada panik malah pada foto-foto, hehe..

ini dia beberapa fotonyaa :

ini lapangan, bukan sungai
liat meen

nah, yang ini foto anak-anaknyaa:

ini anak-anak ipa1 (sebagian)

sebenernya masih banyak foto-foto yang lain, tapi males gw uploadnya, liat aja di facebook anak-anak ipa1. hahaha

see y'all!

scratches

2009-04-08T07:46:00.001-07:00

emang gak bisa nyatu kan kita? sori ya, gw buat lo bete terus. sebenernya sih, lo juga sering banget buat gw bete, tapi anehnya bete itu cepet banget nguap. gak kayak bete lo ke gw kan? yaudahlah ya, maybe that Separated's lyrics are for us,, "why don't you go your way, and I'll go mine? Live your life, and i'll live mine." Yeah, that's true. maybe my friends true, too. gw sama lo ya, gak boleh lebih dari yang seharusnya.

maaf, maaf, maaf. mungkin hari ini lo bete, lain kali lo cukup kasih tau gw, gw mesti ngapain. dadakan tuh gak bagus yaaa.....

picture

2009-04-04T08:43:00.001-07:00

this is what I want to tell you from the beginning :)

rc0809

2009-04-04T04:57:00.004-07:00

HAPPY 7th 'MONTH' ANNIVERSARY rc0809!!! (030908 - 030309)

senengnya gw sama jumat kemaren, soalnya setelah beberapa pertimbangan (apa sih gw) rc0809 ngerayain 7bulannya kita jadi pengurus yang sangat brutal. *hehe

jumat kemaren itu kan cuma ada maulid di sekolah, tapi anak-anak yang rohkris pada masuk jadi diadain kebaktian jumat di gereja toraja. gw sih gak sekolah yaa, males juga ngapain cuma pelajaran seni 1jam abis itu mesti repot keluar sekolah, jadi gw langsung ke toraja aja. (btw, thanks for simus for taking me to toraja :) )

abis kebaktian kan masih rada pagi tuh, jam 10an kira-kira. males langsung pulang udah pake baju bagus gitu gwnya, hehehe. jadi gw minta sama anak-anak pengurus buat makan-makan bareng. tadinya mau di burger&grill tapi pada gak mau akhirnya makan-makan di McD aja deh.

here's some pics:

si duo ****

@ Toraja
didaskalia
marturia

bph!! (ki-ka: togi, yolla, larissa, me, palti)

and this is rc0809 plus jupe without helti, joe, runy and ricardo

the thing is, I really love you guys, walaupun kalian suka nyebelin tapi gw gak bisa kelamaan sebel sama lo semua. ya, pokoknya di 5 bulan yang tersisa ini gw pengen kita bisa introspeksi diri lagi, benahin apa-apa aja yang jadi kekurangan kitaa.. ok guys, I'm gonna miss all of you when we're 'demisioner'

hmm, love you once again guys. *smooches

Pretend

2009-04-04T04:39:00.001-07:00

It seems all of these words

Couldn’t be further from the truth

How did I get here?

What did I do?

Your eyes, telling me lies

Making me find myself

While you have your agenda

A life to pursue

So please

Let me be free from you

And please, let me be free

I can face the truth

I’m blind to all of your colors

It used to be rainbow then

My eyes, where did they go?

Why disappear?

It’s hard to be all alone

I never got through your disguise

I guess I’ll just go

And face all my fear

So please

Let me be free from you

And please, let me be free

I can face the truth

Put down your world

Just for one night

Pick me again

So please

Let me be free from you

And please, let me be free

I can face the truth

*from Secondhand Serenade's song

writing again

2009-04-02T07:28:00.001-07:00

I don't know what I am suppose to do now
I just want to write something in my blog
Nowadays my life seems so unstable
Somebody hurts me
Somebody makes me feel that I am wanted

I really don't know what I am writing
It's just a trash

sorry, I can't make this work

2009-04-01T05:53:00.000-07:00

I've tried so hard to make things work.

but I've got nothing .

capek gw, jujur aja. kayanya gw udah berusaha sangat keras buat memperbaiki ini semua. tapi mereka berusaha apa coba? ya mungkin dugaan gw dari awal tuh bener ya, usaha yang mereka buat cuma kewajiban doang, you did'nt mean it at all. like I've said before, gw gak perlu denger mereka bilang maaf, toh percuma juga udah lewat semua, gw cuma pengen tau, pengen mereka jujur sebenernya gw dianggep apa sama mereka? cuma pelengkap biar pas 6 orang? nyesek banget ya 2hari ini gw ngeliat mereka gak menepati janji, tapi ya udahlah, mungkin emang mereka beneran gak peduli kan sama gw.

tapi tolong ya TEMAN , jujur aja sama gw kalo emang kalian gak mau libatin gw lagi, gak usah buat gw jadi orang terkucil gitu.

sorry, I can't make this work.

earth hour

2009-03-28T19:04:00.000-07:00

"Earth Hour is a message of hope and a message of acton. Everyone can make a difference."

mestinya orang - orang yang merasa bisa baca tuh ngelakuin earth hour ya, matiin lampu-lampu yang ada di rumah lo masing-masing. tapi, kemaren gw ngeliat cuma rumah gw doang yang gelap-gelapan, tetangga-tetangga gw tuh gak ada yang matiin lampu-lampu rumah mereka. terang benderang aja gitu. malesin juga yaa..

udah gitu, gw juga sempet bingung, sebenernya earth hour itu matiin lampu atau matiin listrik sekalian ? haha, begonya gw, kalo listrik di seluruh dunia dimatiin, bisa kacau juga ya.-_-

eniwei, gw pengen earth hour itu dilakuin lebih sering lagi dan juga lebih banyak lagi orang-orang yang ikut melaksanakna earth hour. kalo gak kita, siapa lagi coba yang sayang bumi?

coret-coretan

2009-03-27T09:49:00.001-07:00

everyday

everytime

I can only think 'bout you
that makes me feel stupid

why I have to care about you?
why I always think about you?

you don't even care about me
you don't even say a simple 'hello' to me
when we met

I even quite sure that you don't like me at all
you just call because you have to,
not because you want to

and now,
I've made a decision
I just want to do one thing

I just want to stay away from you
even if it's hard because we meet everyday

but it's hurt
seeing you with another girl

and I hope
you can make it easier for both of us

For my DLB

2009-03-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

Text message from Larissa: When you have a bad friend, give thanks a lot to Jesus. Because, it’s a lesson for you to appreciate and love your good friend.

That's true. The point is, we must always thanks to God whatever we've got.

sayangnya, sekarang gw udah gak bisa bedain mana temen yang baik dan mana yang gak. everyone's got their good and bad side. jadi gak ada orang yang selamanya jahat ataupun selamanya baik, pasti juga mereka bakal berubah (like sylar and peter in heroes, switch personality, hhe..)

gw cuma mau bilang buat temen-temen gw yang 5 orang itu (sama gw jd 6),, I miss our good times, or when we have bad situation, we've always fixed it together and try not to be selfish.

but now? I don't even recognize ourselves, including mine. where are we when we have bad condition? busy with our own business?
what are we doing when one of our friend can't do what we expect her to do? squeeze her out?
when was the last time we solve our problems together without being selfish??

I miss you guys, I hope we can back together like when we were in 10th grade. Everything's got so much easier when we were younger.

TIRED

2009-03-25T17:13:00.002-07:00

GW BETE ....

bete banget gw, sampe gw sendiri gak tau mesti cerita sama siapa saking sebelnya. (oke, mungkin gw lagi pms, but it changes nothing)

karena gw tau kalo blog itu bisa dibaca siapa aja, jadi gw gak bakal cerita detailnya.
intinya itu,, gw lagi jenuh. ya jenuh dari sekolah, pelajaran, organisasi, all of them. gw bosen tiap hari rutinitasnya gitu-gitu aja, ketemu orang-orang yang itu-itu aja, ngerjain hal yang intinya juga itu-itu aja, I wanna do something different sometimes. jadi, gw mulai deh menghindar dari hal-hal yang buat gw jenuh, gak berhenti, tapi cuma menghindar untuk sementara. tapi sayangnya ada aja orang-orang yang gak terima sama sikap gw yang menghindar itu. gw milih menghindar dari organisasi + temen-temen yang (maaf) buat gw jenuh, soalnya gw juga gak mungkin menghindar dari sekolah kan?

pokoknya, gw capek sama semuanya, gw gak pengen libur soalnya itu cuma nunda kegiatan. begitu libur selesai, berarti kita mulai rutinitas itu dari awal lagi.
I want to skip a day full of routines, just one day. I can skip the things I won't do.

*sigh
sori ya, i've messed up everything.

Keujanan

2009-03-22T02:24:00.000-07:00

hari minggu biasanya gw bangun rada siang, terus buka facebook lamaa banget, baru deh kalo udah jam 11an mandi. pokoknya minggu itu hari males-malesan sedunia.

tapi hari ini lain ya, lain banget. gw dan temen-temen tatra (tari tradisional) ditugasin sama kepsek baru kita tercinta buat tampil di pembukaan futsal gitu, yah gw juga kurang tau detailnya, yang penting intinya tampil. unfortunately, kita tuh kebiasaan narinya tari saman, tapi di pembukaan itu kita disuruh nari betawi, lebih tepatnya "Lenggang Nyai"

kita gak pernah sekalipun nari betawi.ok,pernah sih, tapiari ini juga termasuk itu juga buat ambil nilai doang. kita kelabakan dong, soalnya tampilnya itu tgl 1 april besok dan kita gak inget sama tariannya. yaudah, kita sepakat deh buat latihan intensif tiap hari di sekolah, hari minggu ini juga termasuk. yah intinya, gw mesti bangun pagi-pagi buat ke sekolah terus latihan sampe jam 11 gitu, abis itu gw makan bareng nyokap bokap di luar, ternyata nyokap ngajak juga ke salon. gw sih iyain aja, lumayan kaan hehe

and here it comes, abis gw selesai, kita (gw dan nyokap) minta dijemput bokap. bokap malah ketiduran di rumah. tadinya kita mau pulang aja kan jalan kaki, deket ini. ternyata eh ternyata ujan gedeeee benget. gak cuma ujannya yang deres, anginnya juga kenceng banget. saking kencengnya sampe ngerubuhin atap tuh salon padahal salon itu masih baru (gak, gw gak kena, bangunannya 2lantai kok). yaudah, akhirnya nunggu lama banget dan bokap pun menjemput kita.

gw udah lega aja, gw kira bokap bawa mobil, abis bokap megang kunci mobil gitu terus pake celan pendek doang. gak taunya ....

...bokap gw jalan kaki.

omaigod, akhirnya gw berpayung ria sama bokap gw, ninggalin nyokap jauh di belakang sana. emang ujannya deres banget kali ya, jadinya walaupun payungnya udah segede apaan tau tetep aja gw basah kuyup padahal gw baru creambath, sayang dong duitnyaaa :D

sampe di rumah, gw nungguin nyokap kan, tapi gak nyampe-nyampe juga di rumah.
samape akhirnya ada yg ngetok pintu,

nyokap gw basah kuyup dan sempet-sempetnya beli gorengan.

new blog :)

2009-03-21T08:49:00.001-07:00

HAI

akhirnya punya blog juga gw, hehe
sebenernya sih udah punya di myspace, tapi kayaknya kok aneh curhat di myspace yaa, gak guna juga. akhirnya gw mengikuti euforia membuat blog which is udah ada dari kapan tau.

gw sendiri juga dulu anti-blog, soalnya menurut gw buat blog itu gak guna. buat apa coba curhat di dunia amya yang bisa diliat banyak orang? ntar salah-salah bisa bikin orang tersinggung lagi. tapi setelah blogwalking selama beberapa bulan, gw jadi pengen buat dan VOILA!

now I have my own blog.

segitu aja dulu kali yaa, kapan-kapan gw ngepost lagi.

au revoir!